RESTABILIZING

Last week I took a break. I didn’t blog, I didn’t do my project (with good reason though, I emailed my supervisor my first chapter and he hasn’t gotten back to me yet, so no feedback ) I barely exercised ( ended up having 3 days off for the first time since I started.) and finally, I didn’t save anything in terms of finances. (I’m breathing a sigh of relief on that one. I needed a break.)

The main thing about last week was just trying to tie up all the loose ends from the 7 week challenge, just so I could have a clean and fresh start starting this week. To be completely honest I was feeling very frazzled for a number of reasons.

One obviously is the fact that I had just finished a marathon. So psychologically I was tired and sooo ready for a break. Secondly, I discovered and got lost in coffee. Now, those of you fellow growers who have been reading my blogs for a while might have heard mention of me being an incorrigible night owl. I don’t need any help staying awake at night.

But add coffee into this mix and you have a night owl, who already has trouble keeping track of a productive daytime who’s is incapable of falling asleep when the should/ normally would and so is incapable of even getting that little sleep that kept my wheels turning.

Honestly you guys, I was crashing last week. Like I literally wobbled my way into the weekend under the weight of the bags under my eyes and the gloom of my sunken eyes. Yeah, and on top of that I swear I was sick. I’m not sure what it was but it was terrible.

(You guys, my bed rejected me!!!! Can you believe it? Have you ever heard anything so ludicrous? My beloved bed never felt so inhospitable, I tossed and turned all week. There was NO comfort in my bed. It felt like I was trying to fall asleep on a pile of rocks. This in my opinion is the worst thing you could ever do to a person.)

Last week was terrible. I don’t know about you guys, but I’m the kind of person that has a slow finish. I’m trying to change this, but it is what it is at the moment. This also means that even when I have saved up for and waited for a good thing by all accounts I tend to freak out with writhing anxiety towards and at the end to a point where I mess things up, even when it was supposed to be a straight forward finish.

And the fact that I am a perfectionist means I can’t help myself from doing this either because if I am not 100 on top of everything then I can’t relax, but when I meddle, sometimes I just complicate things unnecessarily and make a mess for everybody. (Only my little sister knows how to talk me down from these moments honestly. Thank God for her)

 But thankfully everything worked out okay (barely, thanks to yours truly) and now this week what I’m intending to do is slowly get back into shape. It took me a week you guys, but at least I’m starting to feel refreshed and once again slowly gearing up to start saving. (I’m starting a business, remember?)

Ciao fellow growers! I’ll see you guys next post!!!