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I can\u2019t feel<\/em> what I want. I feel like I had an idea where I was going before and it drove me obsessively for a while, but now that objective has been reached I feel like I\u2019m in an inescapable limbo. I can\u2019t commit to anything at the moment.<\/p>\n I mean sure, there are still those things I was doing before that I\u2019m still doing now, because they are the sort you don\u2019t really ever quit and stop, even after you reach a goal, for instance exercise. But I\u2019m finding myself listless in the face of these. I think it\u2019s probably because I see no definite end to them. So I\u2019m not as motivated.<\/p>\n I decided I needed a 3 week break before I started saving again, but what this has done to me it seems, is leave me in the doldrums. I\u2019ve only written ONE paragraph, for chapter 2 of my project, even though I have the right idea about how to proceed with it. I can\u2019t find the motivation to go after it the way I did chapter 1! And to be honest, I\u2019m not even as motivated as I was before about what I wanted to save up for next anymore.<\/p>\n This is not good.<\/p>\n I\u2019m afraid my progress is going to grind to a halt at this rate. I don\u2019t want to go back to just coasting through life. I\u2019ll never forgive myself later when I don\u2019t have the time or money to kick back on a beach somewhere in my bikini clad bikini body at 40. No, I\u2019ll get there or die trying. (God willing)<\/p>\n So I have to make it count NOW.<\/p>\n I won\u2019t slack off. I can\u2019t let myself slack off! I need help\u2026 God help me, I\u2019m sooooooo out of it right now.<\/p>\n (It\u2019s okay. Take a deep breath Redd! Relax. )<\/p>\n I think what I need right now is a spiritual boost and a reconditioning of my internal compass. I need to pray about this issue specifically. Ask for guidance. Sit down in my own element and listen internally for an answer.<\/p>\n Recalibrate my priorities.<\/p>\n It\u2019s so ironic though. I\u2019m enjoying the breathing space not having to withhold my spending or restrict my actions has given me. But it seems like I really do need the stress to thrive, and I\u2019m not satisfied without it. Human nature is so weird.<\/p>\n See you guys next post!!! \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I can\u2019t feel what I want. I feel like I had an idea where I was going before and it drove me obsessively for a while, but now that objective has been reached I feel like I\u2019m in an inescapable limbo. 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