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I\u2019ve always been an oddball. In primary school I was what you would call an extreme extrovert with sever bossy tendencies. I wasn\u2019t a bully or anything, I never really even thought about it, really. I was just me and literally, my world revolved around me. I never had time to make sport of other peoples supposed \u201cshortcomings\u201d. And looking back now I realize that that must have been why I was able to be so confidently me.<\/p>\n
You know, everybody makes a big deal about growing up. Nobody treats you like a kid anymore and you \u201csupposedly\u201d get to do whatever you want. (My disillusionment on this particular misconception was strong\u2026 let\u2019s just leave it at that.) I have a lot or regrets, and possibly some resentment, which, due to my current personality leanings, I\u2019m trying to deal with in the least turbulent way possible. (Hopefully without any confrontations necessary.) But it\u2019s hard.<\/p>\n
I changed. In high school, I had a lot going on and I was very angry. All that bubbly vivaciousness, left me. I felt so empty. I made so many bad decisions, now that I look back in retrospect. Not bad in the sense that they destroyed me, but bad in the sense that my life would have turned out a lot more differently than it has now if I had just not insisted on being an emotional brat. I lost a lot of opportunities to grow and explore, I\u2019ll admit I\u2019m a little bitter about it.<\/p>\n
I just turned 24, and when I realized I\u2019m basically a quarter of a century old, it hit me very quickly how time flies. True, I\u2019m still young, but there are things I could have done, should have started when I was younger and would probably have worked out if I took the chance then. There are opportunities, I\u2019ll never get back, and it hurts. It\u2019s really painful for me to think about.<\/p>\n
But when I get to this point I have to remind myself that:<\/p>\n
-One, I\u2019m still young. Not hormone driven young, or bursting with unbridled energy type of young, but even now with all the time I\u2019ve lost and wasted, I still have some left. So I\u2019m not lost.<\/p>\n
– And two, I have to remind myself that the past is gone. I can\u2019t change it or get it back. There is no use thinking or hurting about it now. Ill only waste more time if I do that. But the thing for me to do now, and I owe this to myself, is make the most of what I have now. The opportunities, the ideas, even the mistakes. Right now I just want to dive in. I don\u2019t want to worry too much about the consequences or hold back anymore. And I sure as heck don\u2019t want any more regrets.<\/p>\n
That\u2019s not to say I feel like this is the last time I will mess up in a way I\u2019ll be smarting about in the future, but I want to mess up doing the things I want to be doing and chasing my dreams and goals. It\u2019s why I\u2019m always going on about goals, fellow growers. I want to be positive about this.<\/p>\n
Now, for some of you out there you may be wondering why a 24 year old is griping about regrets of teenage years, but I\u2019ll have you know, it took a personality test this weekend and it said I have the mindset of a mid-40s to like\u2026 elderly person, so basically, I\u2019m predisposed to think this way (and by this way, I mean be sentimental as heck.) This also means that I have to fight with all my being not to give in to these same tendencies so that when I\u2019m older, I\u2019m not hurting about what I passed up in favor of my bed and no risk. If I had a chance to speak to my young self, there are many things I would tell her. (But I think I\u2019ll save that for another time)<\/p>\n
Right now I\u2019m kind of set in my ways. Growing up, if you think about it, really, is basically characterized by restraint and I settled into a personality type, in the aftermath of teenage hood, which is all about this. My perfect life right now would be, for me to wake up and not have to worry about work, or money or food. And unfortunately the only way to get there, in this life, in this world is to be filthy rich, or be a survivalist (though I\u2019m pretty sure survivalists have to work :\/) and so I have no choice, fellow growers. I have to put everything I have into achieving this goal (filthy rich), legally of course, or die trying. I don\u2019t think I would be able to rest in peace if I didn\u2019t give it my all. What do you think?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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